clear head lean body

ive fought through the fog and haze and dont be confused it was hell. i can focus and see things clearly now for the first time in quite a few years. i try not to look back but when i do all i see is confusion and pain. why would i struggle so long and actually fight to stay in that fog ? i lost a lot of time  that i can never reclaim. but  i can only live in the future and for today, and i am glad cause i dont ever want to feel as lost as i did just a couple months ago.