It has been a while since my last post and many things have happened in that time.I have relapsed once and had to deal with the pain and deep state of depression associated with withdrawl yet again.It seems as if meth has taken a foot hold in every area of society because no matter where you go there it is.No matter how well you dress or how you keep your appearance up for some reason a user can spot another user.It seems that once you stop and step into the world where you would have normally had to buy the drug people are trying to force it on you for free.Until you begin to use again and then the process starts all over.I have began to think that I will have to go to outer space to escape this affliction

Another week has passed ,I'm in a rut bad,and my mind just constantly flashes from one thing to another. I'm either slammed and asleep or bouncing from one thing to another. My writing is a labor,it's so hard to focus and finish one thought before I start another. I've had a lot of episodes where my guts are twisted in knots and bad cravings,at times I have tasted it or smelled it. Damn,if I can just hang on for a couple months,just until I have some damn energy,I think I could keep busy but as I am now I'm just too tired to do anything. I'm truly suffering for my sins.